December 31, 2015

[Book Review] Play Dead (A Dog and His Girl Mysteries, #1) by Jane B. Mason & Sarah Hines Stephens

Play Dead was downloaded free via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.

Unfortunately, I'm inclined to say this is another of those cases where the cover is quite a bit better than the book itself. I wanted to love this story, based on how utterly adorable both the cover and the concept are... but I only kind of tolerated it instead.

Play Dead, the first book in Jane B. Mason and Sarah Hines Stephens' A Dog and His Girl Mysteries, is a mystery story told in alternating POVs, swapping at varying intervals between the titular dog, Dodge, and his titular girl, Cassie. There are some cute, funny moments throughout, most of which revolve around the dog (there's a bit about dogs using fire hydrants as what's essentially a community bulletin board where they leave each other notes), and I have to give it props for being what I'm fairly sure is the first chapter book (the cover makes it look like an MG novel, but it's definitely more along the lines of elementary grade fare) I've read that acknowledges that youngsters nowadays have phones.

On the other hand, it had two major elements that I was certainly not happy to see. Most frustratingly, we have the same old tired mean girl tropes trotting by one by one here in the form of a girl named Summer and her "posse", who all have "matching haircuts, phony smiles, and lunches that they'd barely eat". I'm genuinely inclined to wonder at this point why all all these kidlit and MG authors are recycling the same tired tropes with no regard to how they don't actually reflect reality--or if I'm supposed to believe believe that every one of them actually lived through childhoods beleaguered by roving gangs of catty, pretty girls. I'm certainly inclined to think it's the former, and I've gotta say it irks, to put it mildly.

Mean Girls was funny. Pretending that Mean Girls is an accurate reflection of female relationships is not.

But that's not the biggest problem I had with this. I can handle a mean girl or two. You have to be able to handle that stereotype if you want to read books like these simply because it's so frustratingly common. No, what really pissed me off about this one is that I couldn't stand Cassie; she's a complete at utter brat, an opinion was solidified when she decides that the only reasonable response to Summer's snide comments toward the new girl is to throw her lunch on her. Is that supposed to be funny? Because it's just utterly not.

Cassie, meanwhile, seems downright offended when she's the one who gets in trouble instead of Summer--you know, the girl she attacked. As she puts it, "As a member of the faculty, [the lunch aide, Ms. Croswell] automatically assumed the person screaming was the one who had been wronged." ...all of which perfectly exemplifies how Cassie is not, as the narrative would have you believe, some kind of underdog sticking up for the other students; Cassie's a bully. At a later point in the story, she refers to Summer as a "freaky Barbie puppet" and her friends team up to pull a prank on her that's every bit as mean and unnecessary as anything Summer and her friends pull. And I'm supposed to be rooting for this kid? No, thank you.

So my verdict on that front is a very simple, "no more mean girl plots, please and thank you." Seriously. I showed up for dogs and for mysteries; I neither want nor need any of this cartoonish cattiness. Are realistic relationships--both positive and negative--between fictional girls and antagonists who are more than cardboard cutouts of a stereotype really so much to ask for?

But the point of this story was the mystery, so let me get to that. The best thing I can say about it is that most of it is a perfectly reasonable, relatively enjoyable mystery. The worst thing I can say about it is that the plot twist was ludicrous. I won't spoil it for you, but I will say that it involves a trope that is utterly nonsensical and doesn't work in a mystery--not even one for children--with these kinds of stakes. I simply cannot stretch my suspension of disbelief far enough to do anything but laugh about the ending to the Play Dead mystery. It is straight-up silly.

If you have a small child who is absolutely, super-duper addicted to reading kidlit mysteries or in possession of an overwhelming need to read about a sleuthing dog, Play Dead might be what you're looking for. But if you're just looking to introduce your kid to a solid mystery series of chapter books, I'd definitely suggest the A to Z Mysteries series instead.

As for me, I think I'll eventually get around to giving the sequel a chance. But if there's no improvement there--particularly on the front of Summer and co., since I've certainly forgiven much sillier plot twists that this one in the past (I'm looking at you, Who Cloned the President?)--I think I'm out. Plenty of other stuff to read.

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[Series Review] Flower Girl World by Lynelle Woolley

Iris and the Aloha Wedding Adventure was downloaded free via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.

Lynelle Wooley's Flower Girl World is a series of two chapter books for young children, and the theme is exactly what you'd expect from the title. It's about a group of little girls who serve as flower girls in a wedding and decide to form a club for their not-quite-a-hobby. The series is fairly cute and I enjoy the art (it looks like something that would be at home in one of those casual Time Management games, like Diner Dash or Delicious or--more relevant here--Diner Dash's spin-off series, Wedding Dash), though I can't say I'm aware of any demographic of girls particularly interested in the idea of flower girls. I certainly didn't have any such interests when I was that age, though I imagine this series might have changed that, had it been around back in the mid-nineties!

I'm going to say that Rosie and the Wedding Day Rescue, the first book in the series, is definitely the weaker of the two. I picked up my copy for free from Amazon during a promotional period (I keep up with Kindle freebies over at /r/FreeEBOOKS), but I didn't get around to reading it until now. It's short and it's cute, though it's not exactly the most fascinating or logical thing I've ever read.

It's really exactly what you'd expect it to be. Three cute little girls (making up your typical white/blonde, white/brunette, and ambiguously brown/brunette trio) are invited to be flower girls at a wedding, and they get to pick out their clothes, deal with insecurity, and solve all the bride's problems along the way. Because of the low page count, though, there isn't much time devoted to any of these issues, and I'd say the "helping the bride" bits suffered the worst for that; but then, I always find these kinds "the kids save the day" plots kind of ridiculous--but I'm sure a kid within the age of the target audience will get a kick out it no matter what I think.

Iris and the Aloha Wedding Adventure was more fun. While the first book revolved around the brunette tomboy, Rosie, Aloha Wedding Adventure shifts focus over to the blonde, Iris, and gives her a new friend when she travels to Hawaii to be in another wedding. Unlike Wedding Day Rescue, which revolved around the typical "kids save the day" course of events with some wedding trappings as flair, the wedding here served as a set-up for something I find much more interesting.

Iris' new friend, Hana, is a mixed-ethnicity girl of Chinese, Japanese, and Hawaiian descent, and her Tutu--her grandmother--introduces the reader to some Hawaiian mythology in the form of the Menehune. It really helped to make the Hawaiian theme seem less like empty trappings thrown on for the sake of exotic flavor and more like actual cultural diversity, and I loved it. Had I read this as a kindergartner, I don't doubt that I would've adored it.

At the moment, the Flower Girl World website has no information about any upcoming books in the series, but if any more do come out, I definitely hope Woolley keeps going in the direction she took with Aloha Wedding Adventure. As for me, if I spot any more FGW books on Netgalley in the future, I'm definitely going to give them a chance. I'd love to see this series go further with the cultural exploration and get into different wedding traditions around the world.

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December 30, 2015

Picture Books 2015: Part Two

This review contains spoilers.

All books reviewed below were downloaded free from either Netgalley or Edelweiss in exchanged for an honest review.

Made in China: A Story of Adoption by Vanita Oelschlager
This is a sweet, rhyming story about a Chinese-born, adopted little girl with a white older sister who teases her about being "made in China", just like the label reads on so many American products. Concerned, the girl approaches her (also white) father, who tells her the story of her birth mother and her adoption while reassuring her of his love. It's another beautifully illustrated picture book focusing on a specific type of a parent-child relationship from the author of A Tale of Two Daddies and A Tale of Two Mommies. I recommend all three to anyone looking for pro-diversity children's book.

Baby Santa by M. Maitland DeLand
I read and reviewed Baby Santa and the Gift of Giving, another book in this series, last year, but somehow I failed to snatch up the other Baby Santa books available at Netgalley! I'm fixing that this year, and Baby Santa, this first book in DeLand's series, is much the same as the most recent. It's another quick little story about Santa's and Mrs. Claus's young child, Baby Santa; while Gift of Giving had, as its title implies, a charity theme, Baby Santa introduces its main character and, as so many children's books do, lets him save the day--but only after he's put it in peril. If you're looking for a Christmas story, this is a perfectly reasonable choice.

Baby Santa's Worldwide Christmas Adventure by M. Maitland DeLand
Baby Santa saves the again in this second Baby Santa book; this time, Santa's sleigh is in the repair shop when it needs to be heading off toward rooftops, and it's Baby Santa's encouragement that gives Santa and his elves a plan. With the day saved, the father-son duo head out to deliver presents all over the world in various vehicles, from race cars and motorcycles to kayaks and blimps. If your small child enjoyed the first book, he or she will enjoy this one.

Baby Santa and the Lost Letters by M. Maitland DeLand
Once again, Christmas is in peril. A whole bunch of letters to Santa are missing from his mailbox, and this time, Baby Santa gets help from not only Santa and the elves, but Prancer and Prancer's network of animal friends around the globe. I'm not gonna lie, that's a fairly cute element that I can't say I was expecting. Thinking about myself as I was when I fit the demographic for this series, Baby Santa and the Lost Letters definitely would have been my favorite of the series.

Baby Santa and the Missing Reindeer by M. Maitland DeLand
I'm going to say this is the weakest of the Baby Santa series; it opens with its issue already in progress--Santa's team of fun-seeking reindeer have scattered off, and they need to be back in time for Christmas. So Baby Santa, whose whole family is unexpected change in this installment into ethnic Africans (from ethnic Europeans), and while I enjoy a children's book that presents a Santa Claus altered from the common variant displayed on the majority of America's Christmas products, I'm a bit thrown by the switch (especially since the change is reverted for the next book, Gift of Giving).

In any case, the story follows Baby Santa on his journey around the globe and presents us with the rather disturbing image of a reindeer dancing on his hind legs in The Nutcracker--costume included, in case you're wondering--while another is seen playing professional, Christmas-themed American football. All in all, it's kind of a weird experience, and I'd say that in terms of plot, it's a bit weaker than the others in the series, which all had more build-up and involvement from the other characters before diving into the 'round-the-world sleigh ride. But if your kid enjoys the Baby Santa series, I'm sure they'll enjoy this one, too.

Magic Words: From the Ancient Oral Tradition of the Inuit by Edward Field
Magic Words is a short poem about Inuit mythology--a little too short for my tastes, actually. But the illustrations are beautiful, and if you're trying to spark or nurture your child's interest in Native American cultures and mythologies (specifically Inuit or in general), this might be a great choice for you.

Does an Owl Wear Eyeglasses by Harriet Ziefert
Does An Owl Wear Eyeglasses? is a nonfiction book that teaches kids about eyes and eyesight by asking the titular question for various species. I think that aspect of it is undeniably well-done, but I have to admit that I'm a bit put off by "dear parents" letter preceding the book. I found it rather condescending, in all honesty. But it doesn't detract from the value kids will get from the book!

A Storm Called Katrina by Myron Uhlberg
A Storm Called Katrina is about a musical little boy and his family as they survive and ensure the hurricane Katrina and it's aftermath, even adopting a little dog presumably stayed by the storm. It's a bittersweet family story that will serve very well for today's young children; though the target audience is now much too young to have experienced the disaster themselves, many will surely have relatives who were affected, and A Storm Called Katrina is a great way to begin introducing a child to the reality of the storm--and natural disasters in general.

How the Meteorite Got to the Museum by Jessie Hartland
How the Meteorite Got to the Museum is a picture book with a repeating element, a la The Old Woman Who Swallowed a Fly. I think there's a bit of a disconnect between the target audience's age and the reading level of some of the diction, so this is probably better read to a child than by a child (unless that child is particularly intuitive four-year-old capable of discerning definition from context or inordinately fond of consulting their dictionary). It's not a bad story or an unenjoyable book by any means, but it might also require its child audience to have some preexisting knowledge of what exactly a meteorite is, because that's not really covered here. Pair it with Magic School Bus' space episode, though, and I think you've got a solid, fun educational experience for your kid(s).

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December 28, 2015

Picture Books 2015: Part One

This review contains spoilers.

Sidewalk Flowers by JonArno Lawson
In a black and white, nearly colorless world displayed in worldless panels of sequential art, a little girl in a red coat finds the titular colored sidewalk flowers while walking with her father. As they walk, she distributes them and slowly spreads color throughout her world--metaphorically, no doubt, but nevertheless. I can't say I'm fond of worldless picture books; I can't shake the feeling that I should be watching a short film, not flipping through a book.

Your Baby's First Word Will be Dada by Jimmy Fallon
There's really not much to it. Every page save the last two features a different father-and-child animal pair, on one side of which the father animal firmly insists "Dada!" in hopes of persuading his youngster to chose it for his or her first word… and every single one is rejected. On the last two pages, however, the fathers band together, and the kids all finally declare, "Dada!' in unison. Honestly, I'm not sure what the point of this is; because of the simplicity, it's clearly intended to be one of a child's very first experiences with books. So, is it simply trying to make a joke about children not giving their parents the first word the parents want to hear? Is it actually intended to encourage children whose parents read the book to them to ultimately decide "Dada" is a first word worthy of them after all? Am I putting too much thought into a book that has, at most, thirty words within it? Almost certainly.

Float by Daniel Miyares
Another wordless picture book, this time about a boy in the rain with a newspaper boat. Unsurprisingly, it meets a soggy ending in a storm drain… but once the rain clears, the boy returns to the outdoors with a newspaper airplane and is every bit as thrilled as he was before the sinking of the S.S. Newspaper. The best feature of the book is actually the inside cover decorations; the front displays pictorial instructions on how to fold a paper sailboat, while the back teaches one to fold a paper airplane.

I Wish You More by Amy Krouse Rosenthal
It's a very simple "story" (I say this with quotations because there's no plot to speak of) written from the perspective of a parent speaking to his or her child, outlining all the things he or she wishes for the child, each metaphorically meaning that the parent wishes their child to live a fruitful, enjoyable life. And I do mean that it genuinely expresses that hope, without the added caveat of pointing out that many, many children do not, in fact, live such lives or else will not any longer upon reaching adulthood; for better or for worse, there's no cynicism or stark realism to be found here.

Last Stop on Market Street by Matt de la Peña
This one's a very sweet story about a little boy and his nana on their way to volunteer at their local soup kitchen. The boy is as curious as his grandmother is wise and compassionate, and ultimately it's a story of her efforts to impart these virtues unto him. The illustrations go out of their way to show people of varying skintones, body types, subcultural identities (when was the last time you saw a man with tattoos in a picture book?), and physical abilities (including a blind man who plays a brief but large role in the short plot).

Goodnight, Already! by Jory John
I'll admit, I was a bit worried this was going to be a deeply misguided G-rated version of Go the Fuck to Sleep, but I'm pleased to say that's definitely not what this is. Instead, it's the story of a busybody duck who utterly refuses to let its Bear neighbor sleep, and the entire time I was reading it, I could not stop picturing this exact same scenario playing out between Spongebob and poor Squidward; this plot would have been right at home in an episode of Spongebob Squarepants. It even ends on the kind of note the show would; when the Bear finally gets angry enough to deter the Duck for any significant length of time, the Duck returns home… and promptly falls asleep. The Bear, meanwhile, has been annoyed into insomnia. Such is life. Poor Squidbear.

The best books in this batch were definitely Goodnight, Already! and Last Stop on Market Street, but the others were all enjoyable enough--as they should have been, considering each was a 2015 Goodreads Choice nominee. Though none of these won (that honor went to Drew Daywalt's The Day the Crayons Came Home, which I have yet to read), I think Last Stop on Market Street would've gotten my vote, had I found the time to read it before voting closed. But then again, I haven't yet read all the nominees; perhaps there are a few other gems involved.

Picture Books 2015: Part Two should be up sometime before the first!

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I'm Back!

Alright, Internet. I've been gone a while. So long, in fact, that I think it would have been perfectly reasonable to assume that I wasn't coming back. But here I am! I'm not dead, I'm not missing, and I'm finally ready to get back into this.

So, where the hell have I been? What could have prompted me to take an almost year-long, unannounced hiatus? Well, I'd like to say I've simply been too busy, that I've been doing fun and exciting things that left me absolutely no time to blog--not a single second within all the drama to even drop a line here pointing out that, yeah, someday I'd wander back into these parts again.

But, in all honesty, that's not really the case. I have been doing stuff, devoting my free time to other pursuits and hobbies besides reading and blogging... but the reason Amara's Eden dropped off my 2015 schedule almost entirely--without me posting a single thing between the months of February and December!--isn't that I didn't have the time. I could have made the time, I'm sure, to occasionally read a book and write up a review. It was the energy that I didn't have, not the time. Or, perhaps more accurately, it was the enthusiasm. I was totally and utterly burned out with blogging; it wasn't fun, and I really wasn't getting anything from it but stress--am I posting enough? am I reading enough? fuck, when did I last post? can I put something together really quick to make up for it?--and eventually, what began as a bit of procrastination turned into a long period of irresponsible abandonment, and by the time that said period had grown into a span of months that's honestly fairly worth of some shame--who lets a blog just sit unattended for almost a year!?--the idea of trying to get back into this with that added stressor in mind was increasingly less likely.

Now, though, it's December. NaNoWriMo is over (and was great for me this year!) and 2016 is looming on the horizon. I have reading challenges sitting around unfinished, plenty of ancient eARCs still waiting to be read and reviewed, and heaping hordes of both library and owned books that are calling my attention.

Anyway, I'm back, at least for the foreseeable future. I can't say how frequently I'm going to post because I can't say how frequently I'm going to read; reading isn't my primary hobby anymore, I have to admit, and 2015 was a year almost entirely devoid of it. But I have so many great-looking books waiting in the wings that it's entirely unfair for me to neglect reading as a hobby--and, by extension, this blog--any longer.

At the very least, if I ever need to take another break like that in the future, I hope to leave with a hiatus post at least; the only excuse I have for not doing so this year was that by the time I realized I'd accidentally gone on hiatus, it seemed like too much time had passed to make a hiatus announcement reasonable. I definitely don't want to do that again, and while I'd like to at least something every week, I'm definitely going to try to post at least once or twice a month. (But hopefully much more?)

All that said, I'm going to be wrapping up my reading challenges from now until 2016 arrives, and then I'll think about declaring some new challenges to try to keep me motivated throughout the next year. So, without further ado, enjoy my first review in about ten months.

December 2, 2015

[Writing Challenge] 30 Day NSFW OTP Challenge | Parabellum - Sparrow/Frost

Found here.

1. naked cuddles 2. naked kissing 3. first time 4. masturbation 5. blowjob
6. getting off while clothed 7. half-dressed 8. skype sex 9. against the wall 10. doggy style
11. Dom/sub 12. fingering 13. rimming 14. 69 15. sweet and passionate
16. in public 17. on the floor 18. lazy morning sex 19. outdoors 20. your own kink
21. shower sex 22. on the desk 23. trying a new position 24. shy 25. with toys
26. boring sex 27. rough 28. roleplay 29. with food 30. author's choice

December 1, 2015

[Writing Challenge] A Year In Writing | Parabellum - Sparrow

Found here. The idea behind this community is to give the readers an insight, a glimpse per say into the lives of numerous individuals. These short stories should only be about 100 to 800 words in length; on’t try to make it any longer than 800 or shorter than 100. Claims can be an individual character or a couple, and they may be original characters, other author's characters, or even rpf "characters".

The mod doesn't mention OT3+ character groups, and has specific sanctions against "offensive material", which she defines as rape and incest; but no one's posted since 2009, so I'll just go ahead and write whatever the hell I want.

1 Sunshine 2 Kiss 3 Loss 4 Laundry 5 Wedding
6 Anniversary 7 Christmas 8 Valentine's Day 9 Easter 10 Fireworks
11 Baby 12 Groceries 13 Picnic 14 Park 15 Circus
16 Vacation 17 Sickness 18 Storm 19 New job 20 Bad day
21 Hospital 22 Neighbors 23 Driving 24 Books 25 Argument
26 Separation 27 Flowers 28 Late 29 Kitchen table 30 Mowing the lawn
31 Lake 32 Sex 33 Moonlight 34 Naked 35 Deception
36 Lies 37 Disgrace 38 Work 39 News 40 Blue
41 Computer 42 Cooking 43 Blood 44 Tears 45 Hug
46 Laughter 47 Pineapple 48 Chocolate 49 Pleasure 50 Pain
51 Walk 52 Restaurant 53 Dance 54 Expensive 55 Poor
56 Cheap 57 Family 58 Blanket 59 Coat 60 Hot
61 Cold 62 Fear 63 Shame 64 Animals 65 Toilet
66 Alcohol 67 Street 68 Stop 69 Go 70 Good morning
71 Goodnight 72 Shooting stars 73 Comfort 74 Hormones 75 Key
76 Games 77 Heart 78 Paint 79 Letter 80 Money
81 Decoration 82 Porn 83 Movies 84 Chicken 85 Fire
86 Ice 87 Rain 88 Shower 89 Dream 90 Moments
91 Coffee 92 Karma 93 Sin 94 Garden 95 Touch
96 Taste 97 Smell 98 Hear 99 Feel 100 Peace
101 War 102 Love 103 Hate 104 Chair 105 Fight
106 Make up 107 Gun 108 Sword 109 Magic 110 Swim
111 Bath 112 Eyes 113 Lips 114 Hands 115 Leather
116 Fun 117 Silk 118 Sheets 119 Dishes 120 Life
121 Death 122 Blush 123 Breathing 124 Day 125 Night
126 Glory 127 Fame 128 Failure 129 Bus 130 Watch
131 Tie 132 Near 133 Fence 134 Lamp 135 Grass
136 Luxury 137 Snow 138 White 139 Cherry 140 Tree
141 Ghost 142 Cuddle 143 Bench 144 Angels 145 Midnight
146 Dawn 147 Poker 148 Fate 149 Skin 150 Demons
151 Champion 152 Diapers 153 Clouds 154 Missing 155 Fade
156 Mail 157 Oven 158 Clock 159 Feathers 160 Hips
161 Music 162 Daydream 163 Hanged man 164 Play 165 Truth
166 Stay 167 Nice 168 Mean 169 Cheating 170 Change
171 Piano 172 Pearls 173 Take 174 Give 175 Big
176 Small 177 Grow 178 Mislead 179 Cookies 180 Push
181 Pull 182 Gravity 183 Temperature 184 Hurt 185 Shine
186 Dull 187 Right 188 Wrong 189 Gasping 190 Drowning
191 Sink 192 Falling 193 Catch 194 Open arms 195 Wings
196 Angry 197 Happiness 198 Delicate 199 Boat 200 Scars
201 Eyelashes 202 Smile 203 Frown 204 Choking 205 Doctor
206 Police 207 Strength 208 Spell 209 Protection 210 Antidote
211 Guardian 212 Cigarette 213 God 214 Sidewalk 215 Armor
216 Insanity 217 Test 218 Breakfast 219 Lunch 220 Dinner
221 Restraint 222 Explain 223 Complain 224 Pants 225 Jewelry
226 Tattoo 227 Delicious 228 Witch 229 Perfection 230 Language
231 Dessert 232 Wish 233 Hope 234 Need 235 Mountains
236 Velvet 237 Heaven 238 Hell 239 Rose 240 Picture
241 Forsake 242 Want 243 Embrace 244 Apart 245 Wild card
246 Walls 247 Relief 248 Doors 249 Loyalty 250 Monster
251. Intuition 252. Indulgence 253. Pretenses 254. Waiting 255. Rhyme
256. Reason 257. Searching 258. Pieces 259. Believe 260. Bitter
261. Sweet 262. Time 263. Complete 264. Broken 265. Fix
266. Best friend 267. Enemy 268. Scandal 269. Grief 270. Joy
271. Fly 272. Say it 273. North 274. East 275. South
276. West 277. Maze 278. Beginning 279. Ending 280. Rollercoaster
281. Broken glass 282. Impossible 283. Up 284. Down 285. Kill
286. Adrenaline 287. Run 288. Understanding 289. Explosion 290. Song
291. Beautiful 292. Ugly 293. Brilliant 294. Hit 295. Scream
296. Sigh 297. Red 298. Strawberries 299. Lie awake 300. Feeling
301. Redemption 302. Spit 303. Control 304. Funeral 305. Moving in
306. Morning breath 307. Toothbrush 308. Duct tape 309. Saran wrap 310. Whipped cream
311. Fashion 312. Jeans 313. Panic 314. Stutter 315. Satan
316. Dog 317. Cat 318. Heartbreak 319. Elope 320. Telephone
321. Real 322. Fake 323. Weird 324. Normal 325. Virgin
326. Mud 327. Office 328. Presentation 329. Head rush 330. Brain freeze
331. Sugar 332. Spice 333. Milk 334. Soda 335. Noise
336. Silence 337. Loud 338. Imitation 339. Original 340. Mockingbird
341. Lullaby 342. Clown 343. Lion 344. Tiger 345. Windwill
346. Whirl 347. College 348. Piggy bank 349. Theft 350. Apartment
351 Beach 352 Sand 353 Sunset 354 Sunrise 355 Swing
356 Birthday 357 Claim 358 Stamp 359 Wounds 360 Marshmallow
361 Bed 362 Moon 363 Low 364 Close 365 High

OTP Christmas 2015

Inspired by Christmas OTP Challenge by ambiguouslygayhusbands @ Tumblr, I created for myself a modified writing challenge in December 2015. (I intend to repeat the challenge in 2016!)

The Original Prompts
getting out/putting up decorations
making Christmas cards
sitting/snuggling in front of the fireplace with hot cocoa/tea
shopping for and/or wrapping gifts
buying the Christmas tree
decorating the Christmas tree
making snowmen
wearing ugly Christmas jumpers
baking holiday treats
snogging in front of the fireplace
watching a classic holiday film
listening to/playing festive music or caroling
ice skating
snowball fight
catching cold from being outside so much
spending time with friends/family
one lending the other their coat/scarf/hat to keep them warm
throwing/attending a holiday party
one surprising the other with an early gift
spending the evening in a cafe
making s'mores
having drinks together on Christmas eve
sneaking around after the other has fallen asleep to put up their gift
spending Christmas morning together

My Prompt Table
decorating the tree
finding the perfect gift
Christmas shopping
wrapping presents
looking at holiday light displays
ice skating
snuggling in front of the fireplace
myths and traditions
watching a classic film
Christmas cards
reuniting with family
holiday party
snowball fight
Christmas eve
opening gifts
holiday feast
new traditions
post-holiday sales
reflecting ont he past year
New Year's Resolutions
midnight kiss

November 6, 2015

[Writing Challenge] 500themes | Parabellum

Found here. Claim anything--any character(s), pairing(s) or fandom(s).

1. vacuum of time 2. terror in the night 3. flashes of euphoria 4. dancing with the devil 5. fatal accident
6. haunting melody 7. black ice 8. breathtaking reality 9. sensation of loss 10. shooting star
11. broken spirit 12. central power 13. left behind 14. unguarded touch 15. last time
16. dying sun 17. devastating explosion 18. alone in a crowd 19. fragmented truths 20. gaping chasm
21. arise from the ashes 22. What lies beyond forever? 23. remember me 24. flash of lightning 25. suffer the agony
26. immortal laughter 27. a whisper on the wind 28. This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you. 29. the calm before the storm 30. a life of lies
31. the winds of change 32. the hand of fate 33. desperate plea 34. nightmare 35. bound by iron
36. caught in the act 37. sensual command 38. Close your eyes. 39. beyond the horizon 40. finality
41. And it is beautiful. 42. lie to me 43. tarnished 44. I covet you. 45. Caress the darkness, kiss the light.
46. screaming silence 47. one dream, one lifetime 48. fleeting flame 49. gasping confession 50. betrayal
51. uncontrollable wrath 52. dragons in the shadows 53. natural disaster 54. leap of faith 55. faceless and nameless
56. harsh revelation 57. a path to follow 58. the power of goodbye 59. through a child's eyes 60. one final look back
61. smoldering heart 62. ignored instinct 63. seductive danger 64. jumbled truths 65. shallowed grave
66. Why they call it falling. 67. volcano 68. dying land 69. a child's truth 70. fire and storm
71. chained to mortality 72. dim as an ember 73. acid tear 74. unexpected emptiness 75. miraculous relief
76. letting go 77. What Earth once was. 78. frantic search 79. tragic moment 80. beneath the smiles
81. across the worlds 82. in the still of the night 83. counting years 84. How you suffered for your sanity. 85. surrender to despair
86. ring of sunlight 87. creaking cold 88. serenity incarnate 89. beloved sin 90. enfold your heart in mine
91. shard of honor 92. horrific distortion 93. miraculous ruin 94. leap into my arms 95. bewildered madness
96. ravenous time 97. approaching doom 98. eternal danger 99. vacant arch 100. recoil
101. intentional suffering 102. urban legend 103. gentle warmth 104. rippling tide 105. fallen haze
106. That's all I ask of you. 107. Think of me. 108. promise me 109. a white rose 110. weary wanderer
111. ghost of a rose 112. fire 113. enchanting surrender 114. cowering sunrise 115. deliverance
116. resisting temptation 117. leaves of amber 118. A shining road that leaves me all alone. 119. heart of a child 120. don't scream
121. Kiss the hand that feeds you. 122. mysterious stranger 123. one heart, one breath 124. the truth about forever 125. ragged hunger
126. Don't look away. 127. lost soul 128. wandering spirit 129. touched by an angel 130. shattered reflections
131. for the sake of sin 132. ripple effect 133. Don't you dare. 134. You can't do that! 135. There will always be a monster.
136. Intimate embrace. 137. It's too late. 138. Cabin by the sea. 139. guardian 140. amusingly inconsequential
141. unbroken illusion 142. stealth forsaken 143. of blood and honor 144. as the wind kindles the fire 145. mysterious memories
146. a song of sweet forgiveness 147. resonating hunger 148. reliquished radiance 149. transcendent joy 150. silent watcher
151. when eye believe in mysteries 152. to love a storm 153. sweet nothings 154. unfinished tale 155. endless night
156. suffocating silence 157. You must hold what you cannot keep. 158. You must fear what you cannot know. 159. You must fear what you cannot speak. 160. ancient willow
161. off the map 162. deserted riverbank 163. You must sow what you cannot reap. 164. a walk along the shore 165. a valley of echoes
166. purity 167. fire and ash 168. secret bonding 169. a time for tenderness 170. sleeping storm
171. islands in the sky 172. unheeded warning 173. battling oblivion 174. spellbound 175. blameless
176. tempting enigma 177. compassion's shadow 178. gently stirring 179. I hate love. 180. irresistible coercion
181. no excuses offered 182. tumbling clouds 183. blue mists 184. When history repeats itself. 185. seek and find
186. Memories unfurling in the mind. 187. Nothing lost, nothing gained. 188. delicious tragedy 189. the in-between 190. into the river
191. You're only sleeping. 192. What can you see? 193. Calling you home. 194. into the world of night 195. somewhere
196. lamentation 197. the moment 198. suddenly 199. childhood's end 200. broken weapon
201. Gazing upon the sky with dampened eyes. 202. vast horizons 203. entrapment 204. quaking knees 205. memory of a dream
206. dangerous illusion 207. in the hands of a child 208. outrageous superstitions 209. guilty morals 210. fragile as a dream
211. An eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth. 212. portal 213. fall from grace 214. balance of power 215. out of sight, out of mind
216. diamond in the rough 217. the essence of life 218. no hope was left of sight 219. desire, ask, believe, receive 220. a fate worse than death
221. the razor's edge 222. reach for the stars 223. touch me 224. unrequited 225. Perhaps they never will.
226. laughter forbidden 227. starved for affection 228. between a rock and a hard place 229. no man is an island 230. vengeance
231. rough hands 232. mystery 233. after tonight 234. farewell 235. And the edges blur.
236. one thousand promises 237. a broken sensitivity 238. a curling shadow 239. a darker pride 240. a deluge of dancers
241. to carry you along 242. a four-leaf clover 243. a golden shield 244. a love remembered 245. a lustful lie
246. a magical time 247. down the silent river 248. With Heaven's love at stake and hell to pay. 249. worth losing you forever 250. a story never to be told
251. all sorts of complicated 252. the tears of God 253. alone I crumble 254. defying gravity 255. No one mourns the wicked.
256. die alone 257. asleep at dawn 258. heart's assassin 259. based on a dream 260. once upon a December
261. before the next tear falls 262. the beginning of goodbye 263. a lonely tomorrow 264. beneath the blue 265. better left unsaid
266. thoroughly ravished 267. beyond the universe 268. black and white 269. blood and moon 270. blood fued
271. bribing the devil 272. broken promises 273. false gold 274. by midnight's favor 275. by the light of a million stars
276. castles in the sky 277. catastrophe in the making 278. creeping nightmare 279. crimson bloom 280. crown of ivy
281. call of the wild 282. darkness becomes you 283. dawn of night 284. dawning upon a crimson ruin 285. to flatter death
286. demon tongue 287. and it is terrible 288. fighting destiny 289. burning star 290. Do you remember the end?
291. oath bound 292. When innocence meets its death. 293. tossing pennies to the moon 294. soul's surrender 295. edge of sanity
296. candy-coated dreams 297. equinox rising 298. ethereal 299. swelter 300. exquisite and unforgivable
301. face down I cry 302. fallen fae 303. light step 304. faery-eyed child 305. slow burn
306. a childhood dream 307. fields of dust 308. final breath 309. reaching for eternity 310. flames of twilight
311. For the child I will sing. 312. serenade the sea 313. lost beginning 314. forgotten, not forgiven 315. fractured reality
316. fragile heart 317. angels among us 318. haunting lonely pools 319. portrait in black 320. approaching flood
321. cloak of darkness 322. wandering hidden paths 323. Twilight's selfish shade 324. the tattered, the torn 325. invisible defender
326. dashed against a rock 327. I miss who you were. 328. kisses of a night terror 329. two days from now 330. I wish upon a tonight.
331. tragic sin 332. If looks could kill. 333. illuminated darkness 334. speak softly to the eastern wind 335. shatter the moon
336. unfathomable truth 337. shackles of the mind 338. growing fonder 339. a time to grieve 340. fire in your eyes
341. tales of long ago 342. crave 343. whisper of the wind 344. Hold still, I'm trying to kill you. 345. breath of the devil
346. the innocent can never last 347. too wide to cross 348. desperate times, desperate measures 349. beautiful friendship 350. in the shadow of a Sycamore
351. Samhain 352. Midsummer 353. intoxicating 354. island of light 355. It ends tonight.
356. quarter moon 357. night of fire 358. knowledge in death, wisdom in immortality 359. harbor 360. white wings
361. a beacon of hope 362. like shattered glass 363. killing moon 364. bless the unicorn 365. only by a candlelight
366. silent sentry 367. beyond the shattered pane 368. to lose what wasn't yours 369. blood and tears 370. lost island
371. garden path 372. mint and lilac 373. fountains of roses 374. Mother Earth's last stand 375. to say goodbye
376. Horizon's meeting 377. breathtaking innocence 378. perilous stranger 379. lost in dreams 380. iron gate
381. crystal statue 382. treachery runs deep 383. warped 384. disenchanted 385. laughing at the moon
386. blind-sided 387. future's past 388. supernova 389. whispers in the dark 390. letters from nowhere
391. the one no one sees 392. You are everything. 393. passionate desires 394. remnants of darkness 395. the bitterness of mortality
396. too much to hold 397. sit with me 398. you raise me up 399. miracle 400. trusting soul
401. twilight surrender 402. when love turns to hate 403. lost and alone 404. when the river runs dry 405. lapping at the shores of sleep
406. landing among the stars 407. touch the moon 408. when stillness descends 409. on the brink of forever 410. clinging to the edge of control
411. abandoned resistance 412. life companion 413. heart within the eyes 414. when forever fades away 415. grave acceptance
416. over the rainbow 417. falling from a cloud 418. time and space 419. sunrise upon a soul 420. prism of a fragmented whole
421. unexplored cavern 422. disembodied voices 423. dancing beneath the moon 424. alighting on the water 425. gliding on glass
426. a tale rewritten 427. exiled child 428. sacrificed child 429. I'll try violence. 430. Who named the stars?
431. mysterious beyond 432. ocean's tears 433. siren's song 434. sea bed 435. living nightmare
436. bound by silence 437. a twinkle in the night 438. a waking slumber 439. a soul divided 440. Speak not the secret you bear.
441. abandoned by fate 442. a far green country 443. attacked by a dream 444. caressed by a nightmare 445. the ravages of time
446. ancient tale 447. faces in the clouds 448. ripped apart 449. from better to worse 450. the space between
451. look beyond 452. edge of the knife 453. a human voice 454. dream the impossible 455. forgotten roads
456. petals on the wind 457. a bitter pill 458. another fine mess 459. the life inside 460. still crossroads
461. frozen bridges 462. fear of the fall 463. dear heart 464. severed tension 465. a child's path
466. imitation of life 467. behind the mirror 468. through the fire 469. echoes of bondage 470. freedoms in chains
471. last regrets 472. unheard of 473. hidden tales 474. disowned 475. frozen fire
476. white shores 477. lights out 478. liquid sunset 479. silver glass 480. when words fail
481. a death of a thousand  screams 482. those who do not remember the past 483. when laughter's lost in peaceful silence 484. the sands of time 485. when death's lips left mine
486. cataclysm 487. messenger 488. when worlds collide 489. a mortal's forever 490. when tomorrows run out
491. Author's Choice 492. Author's Choice 493. Author's Choice 494. Author's Choice 495. Author's Choice
496. Author's Choice 497. Author's Choice 498. Author's Choice 499. Author's Choice 500. Author's Choice

November 4, 2015

[Writing Challenge] Un-Love You 30 Day Writing Challenge | Parabellum - Sparrow/Frost

Found here.

1. You were right about me. 2. I was wrong about you. 3. This cancels out the hurt. 4. I need to want you. 5. You can be like me.
6. I want to need you. 7. Prove it. 8. I'm cruel. 9. Always wondered what this'd be like. 10. I'm broken.
11. Thought I needed this. 12. I'm drunk. 13. I want to hurt you. 14. I'm awake and you're breathing. 15. This is my desperation in action.
16. I want to break you. 17. Wish I didn't love. 18. I pity you. 19. This isn't about you at all. 20. I hate you, you bitch.
21. You'll do. 22. I hate myself. 23. You remind me of me. 24. I want you to hate me. 25. You remind me of someone.
26. I can be like you. 27. Author's Choice 28. Author's Choice 29. Author's Choice 30. Author's Choice

[Writing Challenge] 30 Day Dark OTP Writing Challenge | Parabellum - Sparrow/Frost

Found here.

The Complete List
  1. Vampire/werewolf AU.
  2. Rough sex (biting, scratching, hair-pulling, etc.)
  3. Physical ailments (knife/bullet wounds; illness/fever.)
  4. Forbidden relationship (characters cannot be together and pine from a distance; characters do get together but must always be secretive about it.)
  5. Fears; phobias.
  6. Rituals (up to author’s interpretation: could be a séance, could be a sexual ritual, could be a sexy séance. Whatever strikes your fancy.)
  7. Knifeplay.*
  8. Evil!character(s) AU.
  9. Nightmares; bad dreams; hallucinations.
  10. Victorian Gothic / English Gothic AU (elements of a gothic novel found here.)
  11. Obsession (stalking; possessive behavior; Character A thinks about Character B so much it’s borderline/full-out creepy, etc.)
  12. Urban legends or creepy pastas (i.e. one of your characters is stalked by Slender Man)
  13. Sadism / masochism / pain as an erotic element.
  14. Death fic / grief.
  15. Last kiss / last time your OTP has sex.
  16. It’s The End of The World as We Know It (the villain wins; zombie apocalypse!AU; any kind of terrible, world-ending scenario you can imagine.)
  17. Breathplay.*
  18. Betrayal (to an enemy; by a cheating partner, etc.)
  19. Gags / silence.
  20. Fairy tale-inspired horror.
  21. Negative emotion (A). (Anger, hatred, jealousy, violent impulses.)
  22. Negative emotion (B). (Sadness, missing someone, helplessness.)
  23. Dirty talk.
  24. Fighting / arguing.
  25. Ghosts, hauntings (whether by external source or a dead character.)
  26. Torture.
  27. Bondage / rope play / restraints used during sex.
  28. Doomed relationships (“But this can never work!” ; reflecting on how the situation will eventually end in heartbreak; dating the enemy, etc.)
  29. Darkness / lack of light.
  30. Inspired by classic horror (Dracula, Frankenstein, The Wolf Man, The Curse of the Mummy, etc.)
  31. Cannibalism.
  32. Demons / fallen angels / angels / any mythological equivalent.
  33. Love/hate relationships (emphasis on elements of personality that characters don’t like about each other; “I hate you so much I just want to make out with you!” etc.)
  34. Sensory deprivation.
  35. Lovecraftian Horror.
  36. Orgasm control / denial.
  37. Bad memories (flashbacks, being forced to relive via magic or an in-universe equivalent, etc. )
  38. Domination/submission (sexual or psychological.)
  39. Southern Gothic AU.
  40. Cracky B-movie horror. (Giant crocodiles, giant snakes, sharknados, etc.)
  41. Anonymity during sex.
  42. Inspired by modern horror. (Paranormal Activity, Silent Hill, The Possession, the Saw franchise, etc.)
  43. Bloodplay.*
  44. Mirrors (Dopplegangers; mirror-versions of a character/setting where everything is it’s opposite; mirror ghost games such as Bloody Mary; narcissism, etc.)
  45. Abandoned locations (asylums, hospitals, towns, carnivals, etc.)
My List (and planning*)

  1. Vampire/Werewolf AU | The Circle is a bunch of vampires. The victors are "prized" blood/sex slaves.
  2. Rough Sex
  3. Physical Ailments (wounds/illness) | After the bombing, Sparrow is in critical condition.
  4. Fears/Phobias | After Simon's death, Sparrow and Frost are both terrified of losing the other.
  5. Rituals | Circle as Vampires AU | Frost/Sparrow bonding (not turning) ritual
  6. Knifeplay | Frost finally trusts Sparrow enough to return the most dangerous "toys" to Octavian's gift. It's not the best idea he's ever had.
  7. Evil!Character(s) AU | Dark!Sparrow/Dark!Frost AU (enemies to lovers gets more interesting!)
  8. Nightmares/Hallucinations | Sparrow suffers sleep paralysis.
  9. Obsession (stalking/possessive behavior/etcetera)
  10. Urban Legends or Creepypasta | something to do with that goatman creepypasta, methinks
  11. Sadomasochism
  12. End of the World AU | Zombie Apocalypse AU
  13. Breathplay | There is a very brief moment when Sparrow wholeheartedly intends to kill him.
  14. Gags/silence
  15. Fairy-Tale Inspired Horror | Werewolf AU | Little Red Riding Hood Adaptation
  16. Ghosts/Hauntings
  17. Bondage
  18. Darkness
  19. Inspired by Classic Horror | Dracula-inspired AU; Dracula = Frost, Lucy = Sparrow, Mina = Nadia, Jonathan Harker = Simon, Van Helsing = Idris, Arthur (Lucy's fiance) = Galen, John (Lucy's suitor) = Felix Numerian, Quincey (Lucy's suitor, who dies) = Severin?, the Sisters = Loretta/Suri/Izzy
  20. Demons/Angels
  21. Love/Hate Relationships
  22. Sensory Deprivation
  23. Lovecraftian Horror
  24. Orgasm Denial
  25. Memories/Flashbacks
  26. D/s (sexual or psychological)
  27. Inspired by Modern Horror | Paranormal Activity AU
  28. Bloodplay | Circle as Vampires AU
  29. Mirrors
  30. Abandoned Locations

October 30, 2015

[Writing Challenge] thirtyforthree | Parabellum - Frost/Sparrow/Galen

Found here.

1. bloodlines 2. kisses 3. giving up 4. surprise 5. love bites
6. if only 7. hugs 8. babies 9. talking over distance 10. rent
11. snowfall 12. alone 13. irritating people 14. forbidden 15. stop that
16. pillows 17. fever 18. clouds 19. time 20. far away
21. naptime 22. remembering 23. If it wasn't you... 24. dreaming 25. looking
26. hidden 27. fluffy things 28. get out 29. tattoo 30. touch

1. tell me 2. lost 3. package 4. serpent 5. claim
6. domestic 7. hair 8. groom 9. snow 10. whisper
11. emotion 12. why 13. reading 14. taste 15. thumb
16. sedation 17. riding 18. in other eyes 19. options 20. comfort
21. move 22. blood 23. alternative 24. song 25. pets
26. room 27. choice 28. you belong to me 29. water 30. date

October 28, 2015

[Writing Challenge] fc-smorgasbord | 108 Buddhist Defilements | Parabellum - Sparrow

Found here.

1.Ostentatiousness 2.Grudge 3.Gambling 4.Ingratitude
5.Dipsomania 6.Ambition 7.Dominance 8.Faithlessness
9.Manipulation 10.Stinginess 11.Pessimism 12.Hostility
13.Abuse 14.Debasement 15.Sexual Lust 16.Sarcasm
17.Humiliation 18.Jealousy 19.Gluttony 20.Unruliness
21.Hurt 22.Cruelty 23.Unkindness 24.Obstinacy
25.Envy 26.Indifference 27.Negativity 28.Furtiveness
29.Sadism 30.Enviousness 31.Derision 32.Falseness
33.High-handedness 34.Know-it-all 35.Rage 36.Aggression
37.Rapacity 38.Effrontery 39.Disrespectfulness 40.Hard-heartedness
41.Eagerness for Power 42.Lying 43.Insidiousness 44.Self-denial
45.Inattentiveness 46.Contempt 47.Wrath 48.Haughtiness
49.Greed for Money 50.Seducement 51.Vindictiveness 52.Insatiability
53.Voluptuousness 54.Excessiveness 55.Censoriousness 56.Dissatisfaction
57.Egoism 58.Ignorance 59.Hatred 60.Greed
61.Impudence 62.Imposture 63.Cursing 64.Imperiousness
65.Lecherousness 66.Callousness 67.Malignancy 68.Torment
69.Intolerance 70.Blasphemy 71.Shamelessness 72.Irresponsibility
73.Obsession 74.Prejudice 75.Arrogance 76.Violent Temper
77.Garrulity 78.Dogmatism 79.Presumption 80.Intransigence
81.Oppression 82.Prodigality 83.Lack of Understanding 84.Concealment of Wrongdoing
85.Pride 86.Conceitedness 87.Delusion 88.Quarrelsomeness
89.Self-hatred 90.Violence 91.Vanity 92.Hypocrisy
93.Stubbornness 94.Baseness 95.Pretense 96.Mercilessness
97.Disrespect 98.Ridicule 99.Masochism 100.Tyranny
101.Capriciousness 102.Deceit 103.Anger 104.Discord
105.Calculation 106.Unyielding 107.Desire for Fame 108.Deception

[Writing Challenge] fc_smorgasbord | Reasons People Have Sex | Parabellum

Found here.

1.I was "in the heat of the moment." 2.It just happened. 3.I was bored. 4.It just seemed like "the thing to do." 5.Someone dared me.
6.I desired emotional closeness (intimacy). 7.I wanted to feel closer to God. 8.I wanted to gain acceptance from my friends. 9.It's exciting, adventurous. 10.I wanted to make up after a fight.
11.I wanted to get rid of aggression. 12.I was under the influence of drugs. 13.I wanted to have something to tell my friends. 14.I wanted to express my love for the person. 15.I wanted to experience the physical pleasure/it feels good.
16.I wanted to show my affection to the person. 17.I felt like I owed it to the person. 18.I was attracted to the person. 19.I was sexually aroused and wanted the release. 20.My friends were having sex and I wanted to fit in.
21.My partner kept insisting. 22.The person was famous and I wanted to be able to say I had sex with him/her. 23.I was physically forced to. 24.I was verbally coerced into it. 25.I wanted the person to love me.
26.I wanted to have a child. 27.I wanted to make someone else jealous. 28.I wanted to have more sex than my friends. 29.I was married and you're supposed to. 30.I was tired of being a virgin.
31.I was "horny." 32.I wanted to feel loved. 33.I was feeling lonely. 34.Everyone else was having sex. 35.I wanted the attention.
36.It was easier to "go all the way" than to stop. 37.I wanted to ensure that the relationship was committed. 38.I was competing with someone else to "get" the person. 39.I wanted to "gain control" of the person. 40.I was curious about what the person was like in bed.
41.I was curious about sex. 42.I wanted to feel attractive. 43.I wanted to please my partner. 44.I wanted to display submission/be submissive. 45.I wanted to release anxiety/stress/tension.
46.I didn't know how to say no. 47.I felt like it was my duty. 48.I wanted to end the relationship. 49.My friends pressured me into it. 50.I wanted the experience.
51.I felt obligated to. 52.It's fun. 53.I wanted to get even with someone. 54.I wanted to be popular. 55.It would get me gifts.
56.I wanted to act out a fantasy. 57.I hadn't had sex for a while. 58.The person was "available." 59.I didn't want to lose the person. 60.I thought it would help "trap" a new partner.
61.I felt sorry for the person. 62.I wanted to feel powerful. 63.I wanted to "possess" the person. 64.I wanted to feel good about myself. 65.I was "slumming."
66.I felt rebellious. 67.I wanted to intensify my relationship. 68.It seemed like the natural next step. 69.I wanted to be nice. 70.I wanted to feel connected to the person.
71.I wanted to feel young. 72.I wanted to manipulate him/her into doing something for me. 73.I wanted him/her to stop bugging me about sex. 74.I wanted to hurt/humiliate the person. 75.I wanted the person to feel good about themselves.
76.I didn't want to disappoint the person. 77.I was trying to get over an earlier person/relationship. 78.I wanted to reaffirm my sexual orientation. 79.I wanted to try out new sexual techniques or positions. 80.I felt guilty.
81.My hormones were out of control. 82.It was the only way my partner would spend time with me. 83.It became a habit. 84.I wanted to keep my partner happy. 85.I had no self-control.
86.I wanted to communicate at a deeper level. 87.I was afraid my partner would have an affair if I didn't have sex with him/her. 88.I was curious about my sexual abilities. 89.I wanted a "spiritual" experience. 90.It was just part of the relationship routine.
91.I wanted to lose my inhibitions. 92.I got carried away. 93.I needed another "notch on my belt." 94.The person demanded that I have sex with him/her. 95.The opportunity presented itself.
96.I wanted to see what it would be like to have sex while "stoned." 97.It's considered taboo by society. 98.I wanted to increase the number of sex partners I had experienced. 99.The person was too sexy/attractive to resist. 100.I thought it would make me feel healthy.
101.I wanted to experiment with new experiences. 102.I wanted to see what it would be like to have sex with another person. 103.I thought it would help me to fall asleep. 104.It would allow me to "get sex out of my system" so that I could focus on other things. 105.It would damage my reputation if I said no.
106.I wanted to celebrate something. 107.I was seduced. 108.I was mad at my partner, so I had sex with someone else. 109.I wanted to fulfill a previous promise to my partner. 110.It was expected of me.
111.I wanted to dominate the other person. 112.I wanted to make a conquest. 113.I'm addicted to sex. 114.It was a favor to someone. 115.I wanted to be used or degraded.
116.Someone offered me money to do it. 117.I was drunk. 118.It seemed like good exercise. 119.I was pressured into doing it. 120.The person offered to give me drugs for doing it.
121.I was frustrated and needed relief. 122.It was a romantic setting. 123.My regular partner is boring, so I had sex with someone else. 124.I was on the rebound from another relationship. 125.Because of a bet.
126.I wanted to get a special favor from someone. 127.I wanted to get back at my partner for cheating on me. 128.I wanted to enhance my reputation. 129.I wanted to keep warm. 130.I wanted to punish myself.
131.I wanted to break up a rival's relationship by having sex with his/her partner. 132.I wanted to stop my partner's nagging. 133.I wanted to achieve an orgasm. 134.I wanted to improve my sexual skills. 135.I wanted to get a job/raise/promotion.
136.I wanted to satisfy a compulsion. 137.I wanted to change the topic of conversation. 138.I wanted to get out of doing something. 139.I wanted to test my compatibility with a new partner. 140.I wanted to get a partner to express love.
141.I wanted to put the passion back into my relationship. 142.I wanted to prevent a breakup. 143.I wanted to become one with another person. 144.I wanted to give someone else a sexually transmitted disease. 145.I wanted to break up someone else's relationship.
146.I wanted to avoid hurting someone's feelings. 147.I wanted to get rid of a headache. 148.I was afraid to say no due to the possibility of physical harm. 149.I wanted to hurt an enemy. 150.I wanted to feel older.
151.It was an initiation rite to a club or organization. 152.I wanted to say "I missed you." 153.I wanted to celebrate a birthday or anniversary or special occasion. 154.I wanted to say "I'm sorry." 155.I wanted to say "Thank you."
156.I wanted to welcome someone home. 157.I wanted to say "Goodbye." 158.I wanted to defy my parents. 159.I wanted to relieve menstrual cramps. 160.I wanted to relieve "blue balls."
161.I wanted to get the most out of life. 162.I wanted to feel feminine. 163.I wanted to feel masculine. 164.I wanted to see what all the fuss is about. 165.I thought it would boost my social status.
166.The person had a lot of money. 167.The person was a good dancer. 168.I heard this person was good in bed. 169.The person had beautiful eyes. 170.The person made me feel sexy.
171.An erotic movie had turned me on. 172.The person had taken me out for an expensive dinner. 173.The person was a good kisser. 174.The person had bought me jewelry. 175.The person had a great sense of humor.
176.The person seemed self-confident. 177.The person really desired me. 178.The person was really desired by others. 179.I wanted to gain access to that person's friend. 180.I felt jealous.
181.The person flattered me. 182.I wanted to see if I could get the other person into bed. 183.We were breaking up and I wanted to let them down easy. 184.The person smelled nice. 185.I saw the person naked and could not resist.
186.I was turned on by the sexual conversation. 187.The person was intelligent. 188.The person caressed me. 189.The person wore revealing clothes. 190.The person had too much to drink and I was able to take advantage of them.
191.I knew the person was usually "out of my league." 192.The person was mysterious. 193.I realized I was in love. 194.I wanted to forget about my problems. 195.I wanted to help my partner forget about their problems/I wanted to lift my partner's spirits.
196.I wanted to make my partner feel powerful. 197.I wanted to see whether sex with a different partner would feel different or better. 198.Writer's Choice 199.Writer's Choice 200.Writer's Choice